When your frowns have turned into smiles, smiles turned into laughs, those laughs suddenly turn into kisses and before you know it days have turned into weeks and weeks into months and months. Suddenly, I've forgotten what life was like before he was mine.
Its been a while since I've made a post, and I just had the inkling of a feeling that my wonderful man of mine, doesn't get the credit he deserves. He is my rock, and holds me together each and every day.
I am all mushy and gushy and post pictures of us and how happy I am but that really doesn't make my point..... I am seriously, most certainly very blessed to have the relationship I do.
Life lessons came on hard and strong in a blazing ring of fire all at once for me this year.....
I learned to face my biggest fears of being the person I had been preventing myself from being for years. In denial of where I belonged and whom I belonged to. The decision was mine, and I took a leap of faith. It has been a long hard winding road from there to here but the ride has been worth while.
It's amazing at how much a difference one person can make. Being around people who bring you up and make you better is such a great feeling! Being in love, healthy and happy is amazing!
I make it sound like this is an experience I haven't had before, being in love I mean....
And, I have, I won't deny that, but this time around is completely 100% different. You know, I catch a bit of grief here and there about ohhhh its just the honeymoon stage things will fade, it will be all just like everything else.... No. certainly not the case here.
I truly have my best friend, and most amazing guy I could ask for. I am so very blessed to have him.
The past few months have been hell on my sanity, I feel like a crazy person sometimes and he just picks me up of the kitchen floor like everything will always be okay.
I feel like crumbling to pieces and end up sobbing over my toddler's meltdowns, after a hectic day at work or even cuz of fights with the uncooperative co-parent I have in my life. When I wake up in the morning from a bad's night sleep angrier than a bear woke up from hibernation.....(and would probably scare the daylights out of anybody else).
It doesn't matter the reason, he tells me things will okay, and I believe him. Every. Single. Time.
Things my Cody has taught me:
.1. That nobody is perfect, people make mistakes and we learn from them, us both being prime examples. We both now know what we want and most importantly what we don't. We've learned how to make adjustments and compromises when we need something different.
.2. That (love) its an equal partnership. Two people mutually equally being their for each others hopes, dreams, wants and needs.
.3. One person cannot be the constant giver while the other is a constant taker. Relationships require regular effort on both ends from both partners.
.4. If you cannot be who you are inside your relationship and you're constantly morphing into the expectations of other people (your parents, your spouse, your friends) -- you will end up resentful and most likely broken up/divorced.
.5. You cannot make someone else happy until you are happy with YOURSELF first. Its okay to be selfish and be happy just for the sake of yourself. Because when you are happy its much easier to make other people around you happy as well.
.6. Being happy and healthy, makes me much much more pleasant of a human being to be around.
.7. Its really okay having someone want to be with me purely for the sake of being with me, not because he "has" to, or has to take care of our child, because he has to buy me a house or because he just it to scared to admit he's unhappy too.
.8. That its okay for us to do whatever the hell we feel like doing, we don't have to please anybody else, or care what any body thinks as long as we are happy together, that's what matters.
.09. Money..... is not the KEY to happiness..... You don't need to buy big fancy things all the time.... or go on expensive dates.... being a home, together cuddling watching Netflix with a cheap pizza.... Perfect.
.10. Spending time together, away from distractions keeps the flame intact. Constantly needing to be surrounded by groups of people and needing a "wing man" to entertain you on dates, or just because you can no longer sit and just BE together..... is a NO NO.
.11. It takes a great great man to love someone else's child as his own. And I am so very thankful he does! He's amazing :)
.12. To want someone in your life as much as he want's you in his, the feeling that you would do anything to hold each other together no matter the circumstances is the best feeling in the world.
That's only the start of it.... really, I could go on, and on.
But our time together the past month has been early in the morning and late at night thanks to harvest..... and I miss him so much! I just hope he realizes how truly blessed I feel to have him.
Because without him, I would be so lost.
I love you not only for who you are, but for who I am now that we are together.
xoxo,
Ky
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